Dilemma

[What shouldn’t have been and yet wouldn’t be]

O What is this?
Mysterious and uncapturable bliss
That I have known, yet seems to be
Simple as breath and easy as a smile,
And older than the earth.

None else would ever hear that – Other than the two of us, and the silence all around. I sat there looking at the descent of evening, and the two brightest stars anyone has ever seen. We sat face to face, with an unearthly pain lurking near by, and coming closer by the minute. There was no one else in the world – none, nothing. Relationships, society, and even life seemed so futile. The moment waited for us. The eyes soaked the beauty of each other; one heart touched another – apprehensively. Everything else was devoured by the darkness.

त्बमसी मम जीवणम
त्बमसी मम भूषणम
त्बमसी मम भवजलधीरत्नम

Did you tell me anything? Did I tell you?
A piney melancholy evening descended in a slow and mesmerizing way. The snow peaks looked massive. They made me feel you are way too precious to be mine, and I’m way too weak to let you go. I am in a trance and in no mood to wake up. It’s that feeling, drunk and drowning, only infinitely more intense!

वो अफसाना जिसे अंजाम तक लाना ना हो मुमकीन
उसे एक खुबसूरत मोड दे कर छोडना अच्छा

 

You felt a strange fear, didn’t you? The green hills gradually turned into dark blue prehistoric monsters, and the beautiful pine trees looked fierce! NandaDevi looked mysterious and uncomfortably huge.

The mountains below had some sprinkles of light. Would they survive this impossible night?

 

You won’t lose anything by losing me.
To the rich repast of your fancies,
I shall not come with my earthen bowl,
Wet with hungry tears.
Who knows, even now your words may fashion
Out of fragments
Of what remains of me in your memory
A new creation dream enchanted,
That weighs not as a burden
Nor does it make claims

Bye